I'm missing so many pieces of me it feels like I'm falling apart. Even though on the outside I seem okay, but its all an act. A way to hide the fact I make people feel awkward and uncomfortable. I'm to just hide in my room and not come out.
No one knows how I feel right now and thats okay. I
don't expect anyone to. All I need from people is an ear and a shoulder to cry on. Because no words at this point will take away the pain and sadness.
This lady knows what I need! Miss Courtney! She is there for me no matter what. The distance between us has never stopped us from talking almost every day. I don't know what I would do without her. She has become the sister I have always wanted. She is a piece of my life that is missing.
Then of course there is this man. Josh Childers! He is my wonderful boyfriend that lets me cry on his shoulder until I soak his clothes in tears. ha. He is just what I need to see after a long day. He knows me better than most. And I'm thankfully to have him. Sadly though he leaves me sometimes for tour. As of right now he will be gone for 5 weeks. He is a piece of my life that is missing.
Last but not least is my wonderful dad. He will always be in my heart as this loving man that would give me the world if he could. I will always be his princess and love him more than anything. He was the smartest man I have ever met, and it killed me every day I had to see him fight a disease that ate away his memories. There won't be a day that goes by that I don't miss him. He is THE piece in my life that I need and will always have in my heart.
I have learned through all of this life isn't fair, but at least I have people that love me that will be there for me whenever I need them.
